im so freaking scared now. i noe why but i dun wanna sae it. im so scared. why?? dis is not bout studies or anitin but sumtink else. go figure. i hope all dis isnt true. please.

im also fucked up 2dae. wit lotsa ppl. actualli early in da morning already i fed up. argh. my voice da la hilang tk tentu pasal!! why muz dis happen??

i dun feel da hari raya mood dis year. feel kinda weird actualli. its like i neva cut my hair!! can u imagine. ME, for da first time (wen hari raya's cuming) didnt cut my hair!! well.. actualli i gt reason la. i wanna keep my hair a bit longer so dat i could curl it 4 grad nite. heheh.

speaking of grad nite, i realised dat on dat dae, da mlys r not sitting 2gether!! ala, tk gerek ar. u noe y? coz me n ma frens dun noe who we r gonna sit wit. im so scared. :(

oh ya. i had finally boughth my grad nite dress. im quite hapi wit it but not my mum. she sae its 2 open n dat later my uncle will scold. wad has my UNCLE got 2 do wit da dress?? argh!! so fucked up!!
she oso ask me 2 wear jacket so as 2 cover up. wadeva. im juz gonna wear a THICK kain 2 cover up. so conservative sia. aniwaes i hope look like a princess dat nite n hu noes...

i feel wrong la dis past few days. ive used up a lot of my parents $$. yar.. more den $200!! crazy sia me. bt neva mind. im gonna work as a salesgal selling shoes during december holidaes so dat i could return dem back their $$.

still havent study f&n though. tired + lazy la. haiz.

i wan my voice back!! i sounded like a guy!! gimme back my VOICE!!!

ct aisyah
forever twenty-one
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imma good girl!