firstly, i would like 2 congratulate maself for being sooo brave. :) wanna noe y? as u noe yesterdae i was so determined to find a job. well.. i woke up early in da morning ( 730am ) and i quickly filpped 2 da classified page. my heart was like beating so fast. i dunnoe why sey.. suddenly i had dis scared feeling. ok. den i saw sum good job opportunities la. but i decided 2 call dem at around 930am while i slept for a while...

wen i woke up, i called dem. as usual, kene rejected again. too young.. hello? im gonna be 17 yrs old dis yr ppl!!!! nvm, i called again and again. 2 ppl respond which is a good sign for me la.. den ma pri sch fren called. i told her whether should i go alone or ask ma frenz along. she said go alone better. but i nie kan pengecut sikit. ya.. i admit.. so i can see she quite annoyed with my shyness. so i said i'll call her back later.

den i called E. she is sooooo looking down on me. i felt so hurt but i tried to sound chirpy la.. but she doesnt noe dat deep inside my heart she has actualli hurt me. i told her whether she can accompany me or not go for da interview. she said she dunnoe da place and its betta if i asked A. along coz she noes a lot of things. i dun wanna ajak her coz i do, it will be 2 ppl looking down on me. dey neva encourage me u noe. wat frenz sia.

wen i was doing da housewerk, ive made up ma mind. i decided 2 go alone. i told E. and she also sae she cannot teman me coz she gt religious class.. well... i pon terus siap ar..

as i was going alone, i can be matured la. heheh. biler turun bus, ade donation. dis 2 mly guys. bebel bnyk i juz gif $5. den dey ask whether i was a poly student. den i sae im waiting 4 ma result. dey oso sae dey waiting for results too. yelah tu eh korang.. dey dun look like it. heheh.

wen i turun raffles place interchange, i was like a tourist. lost like anitin. da place was like so strange sia. i look mcm budak bodoh sey. luckily i print out da map. den i tried to pandai2 carik da place ar.. pusing punye pusing pon tk dapat.. fed-up sey.. but my face still maintain. i got no choice but to ask ppl. luckily dis lady help me. she tell me where so i tried to paham2 la. luckily i do paham.

so i finally reached da place. wen i masok da room, there were 4 ppl. all mly. i recognized 2 of da guys. as in i saw dem at da mrt there. da other two ppl were a couple. da guy handsem but fierce sia. tgk me as if i do not belong there. terus i tk tgk muke dier lagik. to tell da truth, dey ALL fierce sia termasok da gal. so i pon act fierce ar.. hahaha.. den i need 2 complete da form bla bla bla...

i was being interviewed together wit da 2 guys. i kept quiet like da whole time padahal inside my mind bnyk questions sia. he said gals muz jadi cashier. i main cakap ok je.. harap2 dpat la.. 2mrw hes gonna call.. hooooopppee so.

so wen interviewed already, decided 2 go home coz my legs cannot tahan ready la. wat luck sey. i cant find da mrt station!!! i round again. i felt so stupid sia. in da end, tanye org lagi. luckily shes kind. she walk so damn fast sia. padahal she wears high heels!! i pakai slipper only i cannot tahan.. salute to u, lady!!! ;p im so grateful to dis 2 ladies dat had helped me. thanx so much. :)

well, i tink its quite long ready la coz 2dae i got da mood. i really really really hope he call 2mrw 2 confirm dat i got da job. well, wish me luck, ppl!! im outtie..

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