i'm just a little girl lost in the moment

actually i haf no intention to blog todae but ive got to get some stuff out of me. im kinda feelin uncertain bout some things. i dunnoe but i juz feel uncertain and uneasy. expect a long entry 2dae. for those hu haf frenship problems may wanna read. theres no solutions or anitin, juz my feelings though. now lets tok bout 2dae.

skool end quite early 2dae. not dat excited though. luckily got da club crawl thingy. well.. we went again. haha! da lessons 2dae was quite a bore. so i dun wanna tok much bout it. i sat through da whole 3hrs wit something in my heart. den at around 12++pm wen to da cca thing to sign up for make-up artiste. hope i can join dat cca.

aniwae, enuff of wads happening in skool. i wan to let out some stuff.
i really wan to tok to somebody but theres i feel dat theres nobody dat i can tok to. nobody seems to care. u can call me a pathetic loser, i don mind. its very hard to please everyone u noe. for example, if you didnt smile at ppl, they took u as ure arrogant. cant they at least think for once? da reason i didnt smile could be because im tired or im feeling down. i wonder where these kind of ppl put their brains.

ever since my bestest primary skool fren is attached, she no longer call me. im so disappointed in her. i still remember da daes wen i havent enter poly, we always go out shopping, call each other, giving each other advice, and gossiping bout primary skool daes...i remember how she used to call me to tell me bout her ex while i just nodded and listen. but now.. everythings changed. shes busy with her work and her guy, while im busy with skool. i really miss her. but wen she called, i always had nothing to sae. why?? mayb becoz im upset. she neva reply my last msg. thats so hurtful. i felt like crying, listing all diz down. while.. i already did.

another thing is my best fren for 10 yrs. yes. 10 yrs. since primary 1. this frenship has its ups and down. which frenship doesnt? i treasure her a lot now. but ppl changed, be it for da good or da worst. she has her own kind of frens, while i have mine. we only go to skool together but go home separately. not like last time. i kinda miss those daes. i tink shes enjoying her life more now. good for you, galfren. i noe shes been hanging out wit dis new mly gal. im not jealous or anitin, but da least she can do is to at least tok 2 me for a few minutes in skool. its like wenever we terserempak in skool, she seems like in a rush to go off. it saddens me sometimes. to my other fren in tp, i miss you too.

luckily for me, i have some frens in my class. i call dem frens becoz i can really click with some of dem. luckily also theres fara. can u imagine if im da only mly gal in class. sheesh.. i'll be such a loner. im not bluffing coz i had experience it before. i may look kinda quiet but actually theres a lot of stuff i can tok about. its only dat i have nobody to tok to. sometimes, they tok using channel 8 (u noe wat i mean) and wad do u tink i can do. nothing.

i dunnoe why im saying diz, mayb becoz im juz plain lonely. i sound pathetic sia.
im so sorry bout dis remorseful kinda entry. i juz gotta let all diz stuff out. i feel relieved now. well.. kinda. how i wish i could find someone i could confide with.