i'm just a little girl lost in the moment

my second sister is taking her O levels this year and god is she not that anxious. in fact shes re-taking her mother tongue paper 2mrw and and shes watching tv in the living room now. haiz. i remembered when i took my O levels 2 years ago. i studied like mad and even burn midnight oil. all for the sake to pass and go to poly. i even remembered how my parents stayed up with me till i finished studying. but my sister is different. she complained saying that my parents are biased towards her, but i dunnoe who to agree with. if she dun want our parents to scold her, she should at least stayed in the room and do some revision. but no. she go out to the living room, watched tv. then she brought out her notes, kononnye blaja at the same time. biler org tegor, bingit. tk faham sia. sumtimes i pity her whenever my parents questioned whether can she really go to poly. but seeing her in this state when the O's are approaching, the sympathy in me slowly fades. she mostly spent her time wondering about unimportant stuff. which she can happily do after the O's. im not saying that im heartless but if she dun wanna help herself, who would? whenever i asked her to study, she would rudely say : "i know lah when i wanna study" thats why i dunnoe what to say already. shes stubborn lah, no use.

ntah lah eh. all i can do for her is to HOPE & PRAY that she can do all her papers, from the bottom of my heart. im saying all this because i dun want my parents to compare her & me. coz we are totally different. if i study, im totally focused. but shes easily distracted. i want her to prove our parents wrong that she can actually do better than me. haiz. i feel worried for her whenever shes slacking at home. just hope that everything goes smoothly for her. AMIN.