wow. its coming to the second week of may already. may, june, july, august... before you know it, its a brand new year. i dont want time to pass so fast. i dont wanna be old and hafto think of the future!!! its too soon for me and thats scary.
anyway, ive not been accepted to NUS either. hah. i had expected it already. so whats left now is to find a job that i can commit till early january next year. i still wanna study okay, just that sometimes i cant make up my mind. very fickle-minded.
so what have i been doing for the rest of my days? well.. its for me to know and for you to find out. only my close ones know. so if you bothered to know, just ask.
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sometimes i feel like i have no friends. hahaha. dont you get that feeling sometimes? when they are down, you are always there for them. but when you are down, they dont even bother to ask. i was on msn yesterday. initially i put my status as appear offline. then i saw my contacts under the "friends" section. okayy.. so many are online. so i decided to change my status and appear online. few minutes past, still nobody talks to me. so i make myself busy by surfing the net, blog-hopping, talking to my sisters.. but still no orange tab blinking.
so... now im asking, why do i have msn in da first place? i dont find it a need anymore. its actually getting boring. why didnt i initiate a convo with people? eh sorry sikit, asyik2 aku yang start dulu. lek sua. korang sape siotz. thats why i rather appear offline and only talk when necessary. things aint the same as it used to be.
if any of you feel offended, i dont know why you should feel that way. im only speaking what i feel. its always ME who have to care about other people's feelings. whatever lah. i dont give shit anymore. seriously. how do you feel when you care about other people, but they dont even care about you? how does that make you feel? -pathetic.
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on a happier note;
im so loving the length of my hair now! it has finally reached the desired length. woohooo. its always the case when i wanna cut my hair. maybe i should just layered it a lil bit and also my fringe ar, omg. sucks lah. idiot. hahaha.
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