i'm just a little girl lost in the moment

i miss _________.

if im not wrong yesterday was the day that he will come back. but how come no news sey. could it be because of what i said to him the other day when he called? :/

let me story... so he called last monday. it was a private number. i thought it was some job recruitment agency asking whether im still searching for jobs. but jeng3 i heard a familiar voice. my heart was beating so fast. i was estactic, shocked, surprised and all the other feelings lah to descibe happiness. hehe. and the purpose he called is just to check on me, how im doing and all. alahai.... sweet kan. then talk2 abit. and then he asked "do you miss me?" (million $$ qn sey nie)

guess what i said?

"hmmm... ntah ehh"

omg. NTAH EHH??!!! kau.... jawapan paling bodoh skali. serious shit sia. padahal i miss him also la. dat really hurts his feelings i guess. member suare da hampa sikit. kesian budak tu. dari jauh dier call aku, abeh aku jwb ntah ehh. bodo nyer kau aisyah.... shoot me pls. i didnt even ask him when hes coming back. what the hell is wrong with me??!!! ahhhhh.........

so people let me tell you this. if you really2 miss someone, please just give the honest answer and push your fucking big ego (like mine) aside. i tell you ah my ego is as big as the ocean. btol, tk bedek. all the guys that ive contacted before, they are always the ones who will sms me first, not me. kalo dorang tak msg, i will keep wondering why they neva msg but then i will do nothing about it. see? ego kan? ishk nk menang jek. tknk give in. mcm ane nk dpt boyfren? hahaha. actually the main reason is right i scared if i msg first dey never reply. it happened to me before, thats why mcm phobia uhh.

thats why i guess he never bother to tell me whether he come back alrdy or not. padan muke aku! serve ME right. action bagos lagik lah. ar kan sape yg rugi? menyesal tk suda kan skg? action lagik laaa... da la nasi da jadik bubur. mkn pon sedap. k, merepek.

sheesh i really MUST change this couldnt-care-less attitude of mine to a more caring-loving attitude ah. HAHA! mcm btol jek ehh. i dunnoe why i act like that. could be im scared to fall in too deep with someone again. hmmm...

now i really hate the words ntah ehh seyy... STUPID!!!!!