i guess hes just infatuated by me. hahaha. like duhh.. i cute what (this part korang amek baldi then tros muntah ok? haha) joking lah. but really i tink its just infatuation. coz you see whenever we dont meet, he will get agitated and sensitive easily. but wen we meet, everythings ok. all i hafto do is just show my face la if like that. what for right?
i feel like we rushed into this relationship too soon. like what my chris brown sang from the song flyin solo "When it started I knew this relationship was unhealthy" yeah. i predicted it too but i thought we could give it a try. we didnt know much about each other yet. he was too overprotective and overly sensitive. and i was the patient and matured one. then again he would think otherwise. pape la boy.
oh well.. i think the "problem" he had somehow made me suspicious. it was too much of a coincidence la. coz we just quarreled the day before, but when settled alrdy, out of a sudden that problem came up. hmm fishy eh? kalo kau da bosan ngan aku, bilang jek. tkya nk create2 cerite. ntahlah i might be wrong. i dunnoe. whatever. <-fav word dier sia! menyampah.
so.... the ultimate qn: have i moved on? i dunnoe la. maybe yes, maybe no. i have this tendency to check on their (the guys that i once contacted) online profiles. just to kaypoh2. thats because i want to see how much have they moved on. seemed that he moved on quite fast i see. i guess it already,
INFATUATION.
ok, so if hes infatuated, then why do i get myself into this relationship? when i think back, maybe i want to experience how it felt being loved and to be love. someone that will be there for you when ure lonely. ur companionship. someone i can manje2 with. haha. i wont say i love him, but i cared for him. ps, at that point of time only.
we are not on talking terms right now. i dont know whether he still wanna be friends with me or not. i wonder whos the next victim, oppss i mean girl who he gonna fall for. i hope i wont get jealous or anything. eeeee... i dun want sey. i dun wanna cry anymore. its damn tiring.
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Burn - Jessica Mauboy
(Verse1)
Did my make-up and my hair the way you like (like) like (like)
Still you seem to find something bout' me that isn't right (right) right (right)
You called me sexy then we burst again,
I'm sorry this is the way I am,
I'm crazy just for giving you a chance chance,
This will never happen again,
(Chorus)
Look what you did to me, give me some remedy,
I need a doctor cause this is starting to burn,
Try to fix it now; the grit is to the ground,
This love is over so baby just let it burn,
(Verse2)
When we're at the club gonna shake it the way that turns you on (on)
(You couldn't take your eyes off me), you know that I'm hot
But you wanna make me feel like I did something wrong, wrong
You're twisted, if you think that you could control me,
Your actions are about to leave you sad and lonely,
You're crazy, so let me put this to an end end,
Don't ever want to see you again,
(Chorus)
(Verse3)
I'm on fire, I'm on fire,
No way to cool me down, boy you're burning me up,
I'm on fire, I'm on fire,
No way to cool me down, boy you're burning me up, ohh ohh ohh ohh
(Chorus x2)
Oh ohh ohh burn burn ohh ohh burn burn
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i can type a whole chuck just bad-mouthing him but i find that its not nice la. just a summary will do. i dont want to do anything with him anymore. but i just want him to sincerely apologised. as much as i dun want to say this. karma will hit him back.
"okok, new year's eve i amek u bwh blok kul 7pm den we go somewhr den we watch fireworks. afta dat, alek we take cab lah to avoid human traffic"
ah yelah tu. empty promises, yet again.
