i'm just a little girl lost in the moment

i dont get it. why is it that when you are chatting away on msn with people whom you just know for barely 1hr, and the next thing they asked is for your contact number. we didnt even have a decent conversation and he wanna exchange numbers? im not being arrogant or anything. if the conversation is fun, most probably i will give. if its not, no way! and then when i cant give, they will just silent themselves. pathetic or what.

from now onwards, i will only give to those that im really2 interested in making friends with. i hate being forced to give my number away but at the same time i dont want them to feel as if im one big shot or something. i know it sounds stupid. but its just my nature lah to feel this way.

nowadays also i dont feel like replying anybody's msg. i only reply if i feel like it. sometimes i feel like just shutting myself out of this world. nobody cares anyway.

i feel so bored. february is here. this is suppose to be my month! but... i dont feel anything. i feel numb. however im happy to see my sisters happy. happy with the lives they are leading now. really i am =) i dont know why but somehow i feel like they are my only companion.

hmm.. pape lah eh korang. aku... da malas. you guys wont get to know anything coz i know how to put on a fake front. dont just say if you dont mean anything.