i'm just a little girl lost in the moment

He was there when I first started out my new job.
He was there when i first started teaching tuition.
He was there when I changed my braces the second time going alone.
He was there when I passed my FTT for the second time.
His name would always appear in the morning and when im going home.

During the period of knowing him, Ive never been so happy in my life before. He is someone I know my parents would approve of. He will always cheer me up day and night.

But all this changed. No chemistry, he said. I was down, heart-broken of course. Not because I fall for him, but its because I lost a potential good friend. Too good to be exact. Because of that, Ive deleted all his msges from the start we knew each other. I didnt even check what was the content because the truth hits me so bad. fyi, ive never deleted that much msg from someone before.

I thank ALLAH for giving me the opportunity to know him, even if its just a short period of time. Like what he said, all that is left is to just reminisce the memories we used to have. Not more then that.

Now when I look at my hp, it feels so dead. I feel half-alive. I dunnoe what to say anymore ah.

Looks like Im gonna be alone again during the Ramadhan time...
=(

You'd think I'd learned my lesson by now
You'd think I'd somehow figure out
That if you strike the match you're bound to feel the flame
You'd think I'd learn the cost of love
Paid that price long enough
But still I drive myself right through the pain
Yeah, well, it turns out
I haven't learned a thing

-Daughtry, Learn My Lesson