i'm just a little girl lost in the moment

It's not that I want a boyfriend;
I'm quite happy without.
I mean, who needs the protection
and the obligation and the
complete and utter trial?
And the commitment?
Not worth a second of your time.

It’s just that,
oh I don’t know;
I’ve always grown up with the idea that
someday, somewhere there will be
someone waiting for me.
And now?
Well now I’m not so sure.

I love the idea of love,
but that’s all it is.
An idea based on chemical reactions
and previous encounters
and historically inaccurate films
that show boy meets girl
and girl develops delusions.

But I don’t not want a boyfriend,
or at least a boy that is a friend.
There’s something comforting about
midnight phone calls and
whispered promises;
as long as one keeps their word.
And who know how often that happens?

I want reassurance
that I will not die alone.
A glimmer of hope
that everybody has a chance.
That even when you’re old
and fragile and weakened by doubt;
there may be a reason for it all.

i smiled when i read this. got it this from someone's blog (whom im an avid reader of). and it actually describes how im feeling this past few days. sometimes the more you want to forget something, the harder it is to get through it. like what ppl say, blom ader jodoh....

btw, the above was taken from this website, http://baby-h.deviantart.com/art/What-s-it-all-for-139584159.